you know some times in life people seem to forget that the average guy takes a whole hell of a lot of shit about how he interacts with people many times they feal he dosent try hard enough or isnt doing what they want when they want the fact is the nice guys in life generly end up finishing last in the life goal department not because they want to but because many things in there life just went hay wire i have done many things in my life some for fun some for just survivle some for just being some one who cares when i was 17 i signed up to serve my country i put in three years of active service this i did becaues i loved the freedoms i grew up with felt it was worth fighting for i have had manny jobs over my life time a solder a dish washer a paper boy a factory worker a cleaner a security guard a computer repair tech a watch repare tech a wharehouse worker a sales men all of these things have shaped who i have become but in the prosses i seem to have lost my ability to dig out of the last economic down turn i am not poor but have received many kicks in the teeth i keep coming up swinging i begin to wonder if being a nice guy is worth the hedachs i receive i am a ferm baleaver  of karma what goes around comes around i see through many peoples fake front they put up to transfer attention to someone else to cover there own inabilty  i see this a lot at my job these kind of people although work hard create conflict to justify there own actions put three people in a room they will make one an outcast or try to i gues i just needed to vent a little any way it felt good to get this off my chest sory  if i bored anyone but some times i wonder if it is all worth it hay all love deeply fuck often have fun out there